To start, today I’m grateful. I’m grateful for the month of June. For me, there’s a lot of celebration in June: My wife and I will celebrate our 7th wedding anniversary, Fathers Day is in June, and my birthday is in June, a birthday I get to share with my son, Elio, AND my twin brother. I love chocolate and I often call June the month of chocolate because of all its celebrations. I’m also very grateful for very dear friends, for the chance to play my sax recently with my old band, and for the opportunity to get out recently on some trails and run. I feel like I’m living my best life at this moment and that has me feeling abundant, joyous, and very, very grateful.
In a way that doesn’t diminish all my gratitude, I don’t mind sayin’ that life has been a little nuts lately. My family and I are preparing for a great adventure. The details aren’t firm yet, so I’m a little reluctant to say too much about it but needless to say, there has been a metric-ton of preparations, changes, and hard work involved in the past several months and especially the last 2-3 weeks. I’ll let you know when our plans are firm, plans which point to living in a truly exquisite place.
I plan on keeping Salt Lake City as a base for teaching and visiting family and friends but will be expanding my base with plans to teach retreats, trainings, workshops, and classes in various places in the US, including New York as well as in Europe, and Asia. If you’re interested in joining me for one of these adventures, please consider joining me this September for a retreat in Bordeaux with a “pretreat” in Paris! It’s going to be a blast and I’d love to have you join me.
So yes, our family is in the throes of change as we prepare for our next adventure and frankly… I’m tired. I’m excited for what lies ahead, yes, but MAN it’s been a lot of work to prepare for this next adventure.
With all this change I’m experiencing, it’s easy to get thrown off center. However, with the right kind of awareness, any turbulence of life, even the kind of crazy I’ve been experiencing lately, can actually point me to absolute centeredness and this paradox of moving into stillness reminds me of the Shiva Nataraj or the Dancing Shiva, a Hindu statue that illustrates how the indefatigable motion of the universe not only has the power to center me but also puts me into the current of my own personal and spiritual evolution.
In this statue, Shiva is depicted with a calm, serene facial expression, lips turned up in a wry smile.Shiva is waving several arms (hey, I could have used a few extra arms, recently), posing beautifully and expressly as if the sculptor captured this figure mid-dance.
In this statue, Shiva is quite hermaphroditical with female hips, a slight bosom, and of course depicted in the gesture of dancing. In ancient vedic wisdom, the male god Shiva represents pure and absolute consciousness, the underlying beinginess of all things. The female god Shakti is the dancer who, through her movement, creates all the change, form, and energy of the universe. The marriage of Shiva’s consciousness and Shakit’s motion results in the birth of everything conceivable in the Universe, including us and our lives. Truly, we are the love children of this marriage of consciousness and form, a radically expansive expression of their both/and union. Therefore, the Shiva Nataraj statue doesn’t represent only Shiva, but rather the realized both/and nature of a merged Shiva/Shakti, consciousness aroused by form. For that reason, for the rest of this article, I think it’s fair to reference this representation of blended genders and purposes with the pronoun, “their.”
Surrounded in flames, hair on fire, and standing on an impish creature which sometimes looks like a baby (don’t worry, it’s actually a benevolent act which I’ll describe in a moment), this Shiva/Shakti image transmutes language, time, and the chaos of the universe into pure presence and depicts at least 5 steps which both help me to appreciate the ceaseless and sometimes seemingly chaotic motion of life while also pointing me to my own greater spiritual advancement.
Looking at this statue, in their upper right hand, Shiva/Shakti is holding a drum which symbolizes beating a life, pulse, and rhythm into all things in the Universe, a generative gesture which speaks to the season of spring when things are born. Modern physics attests to this universality of movement, that everything from the smallest particle to the largest galaxy—hell, even the Universe itself—is in some form of vibration, frequency, and change. This change includes light, sound, color, and even thought. As a fellow musician, I love the idea of DJ Shiva/Shakti laying down the solid backbeat for the tribe of all things as we dance around the central fire of one effulgent Source.
Shiva/Shakti’s second hand on the right side is holding the abhaya mudra, an open-palmed gesture, one that suggests a generous holding or sustaining of what was born. If their first hand on the right side represents spring, then this hand certainly represents, “summertime, and the livin’ is easy . . . .” This gesture gives us hope and engenders gratitude for things as they blossom, grow, and mature.
Yet, Shiva/Shakti warns us against becoming too comfortable with anything because in their first hand on the left, they are holding a flame, suggesting that as easily as they can birth and sustain something, they can and most assuredly will raze it to the ground. I think of this act of dissolution as the autumnal cycle, like the eruption of fall leaves, bursting into the flames of color. There is no malevolence in this killing. In fact, the serene look on Shiva/Shakti’s face suggests that even the process of dying is all part of life’s textured tapestry, it’s partly what makes life so good and could even be seen as a great act of compassion toward us, like when an old situation needs to die so that we can move on to the next great adventure.
Of course, after the fire, when we are in our darkest place, frozen in the winter of our pain, our inclination may be to importune the heart of the deity and supplicate for restoration. Shiva/Shakti, however, shows us that they have other plans. Instead of opening their heart to us and restoring us to the way things were, Shiva/Shakti’s other left hand is actually concealing their heart, almost as if to add insult to injury, saing, “Nah. The key into the heart of God doesn’t come that easy. You gotta work for this, kid.”
Shiva/Shakti’s right leg is standing on a small, impish creature, something that either looks like a baby or sometimes a pig or demon. More than once, an inquisitive and well-meaning yoga student has asked me, pointing to the statue, “Um … why is that person standing on a baby?” This thing that looks like a baby is called the Apasmara, and represents the unrealized, ignorant, or less-developed version of ourselves. When we’ve been conquered, humbled, and suffered the coup de grace, Shiva/Shakti goes one step further and stands on our corpse. Yet this gesture is actually one of great benevolence. This is because Shiva/Shakti is literally taking a stand for our highest good by putting asunder the old version of ourselves. It’s like Shiva/Shakti is giving the old version of ourselves the honorary funeral rites and burial. Often, true transformation, indeed apotheosis, can only come after such a dark night of the soul as suggested by this statue. Transformation requires death and resurrection.
Finally, while Shiva/Shakti is doing their honorary Riverdance on our ignorant selves, with the only limb that Shiva/Shakti has left, they lift their left leg upward in an invitational gesture to rejoin a brand new cycle of rebirth, sustaining, dissolution, concealment, and revelation, and thus it continues for infinity. Surely, this eternal cycle symbolized in this statue represents a circular notion of time as well as the fact that our personal and spiritual evolution is also not linear but rather circular, each turn around the cycle lifting us in an upward spiral, ever higher along our pathway to personal and spiritual evolution.
In the statue, the Shiva/Shakti personage is wreathed in flames, suggesting the intense refinement and of our evolution. Yet, despite this intensity, even despite the fact that their hair is on fire, Shiva/Shakti comports an unwavering expression of stillness, serenity, and even joy. This statue shows us that in the eye of the storm of all this change rests an unperturbed stillness, a presence and Awareness which is the foundation upon which the dance of everything can occur.
So, as I am experiencing a season of transformation in my life, one that I chose for myself mind you, I must remember that all of the crazy I’m experiencing is pointing me to a simple lesson: to be present and to join this dervish dance of personal growth. All this change points to the often disguised but undeniable truth that there is only here, that there is only now.
As my next stage is born and I commence yet another cycle in this unending cycle of evolution, I’ll most certainly keep you up to date.
I invite you to take a moment of contemplation and consider the different cycles you may be experiencing in this moment — stages of life, relationship, or career, to name a few — and acknowledge which part of that cycle you’re on at this moment. Then, consider all the ways that the moment you’re experiencing at this moment might invite you into stillness as you are growing into your next and higher version of yourself and becoming the person who you are destined to become.
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One more note of gratitude and an invitation …
I am so grateful to have discovered a way to make a living doing what I love to do—teaching, writing about, and training others to teach yoga and meditation—and to be able to do it from anywhere in the world. If you’re interested in giving birth to a new cycle of your personal evolution, in learning how to make your side hustle into your main hustle or how to turn your passions into your profession, and in making a massive impact on the world while also making a living—oh and like I said, to be able to do it from anywhere—please drop me a line. Let’s set up a free meeting, in person or via Zoom, where we can discuss some simple steps that you can take today to start to make that dream or idea into a reality. Especially as the result of people who have lost their jobs because of COVID, I’ve had the great pleasure of coaching several people lately about how to pivot their professions and start to put themselves out into the world in a way that also puts bread on their table. I’d love to discuss your ideas with you to see if we might be a good coaching match. Reach out to me clicking here
Namaste,
